Once again, my apologies to my fellow Indoobians who have been waiting for my regular writings. I also promised to make more videos but things haven’t worked out the way I intended every time I get ready to record myself. One day I forget the tripod, the next day I forget the camera, the day after that I can’t control the lighting and then the day after that I’m just no longer in the mood.
As they say, life happens.
So a video will come when it is ready. The videos I had in mind would feature my review of 2011 (the longer I wait, the less relevant it seems to do it), Oscar nominations (which you can hear on The Lost Dial) and various other things like movie and food reviews.
I sometimes feel I’ve gotten too busy for my own good. I look back on the past week and wonder where the time went. I can’t blame it on TV, as much as I love to keep up with some of my favorite shows, I only spend about two hours watching it. Perhaps I’m sleeping too much. As I type that very sentence, I think of coffee and how I haven’t had any yet.
I have lists of lists of things to do. That isn’t a typo, I literally have my lists of to-do lists. Some are church related, some are 3S related. Oh, by the way, from now on, I’m calling 3S:FX Productions, “3S” for short because if you had to say 3S:FX Productions out loud 17 times in a single conversation, your mouth would be very tired and require 2 glasses of water. Anyway, you get the point. I have things to do and I feel like I don’t get them all done in the timely manner that I expect.
I can’t wait for the day when I can hire an assistant. Oh the joys of saying “Dorthy Jane, hold all my calls.” Yes, that’ll be the day, indeed.
But I’ll end on this thought: I am taking full responsibility for not getting my plans completed. I’m blaming my lack of ambition after getting over the mad holiday hustle and bustle. I need to remind myself that people are depending on me to succeed, even if they aren’t I need to believe that they are because that’s what drives me. My fear of failure is one of a million things that keeps me moving forward, even if that translates to sitting in this chair for 10 hours editing a 15 minute video.