Today I’ve only really had two things on my mind: get money, get sleep. I woke up this morning from the best sleep I’ve had all year just to do a quick audio consultant job (something I’ve been told I should add on my business card), got paid and went back home for a quick continuation. Unfortunately, that didn’t happen and out of habit, I made myself a cup of coffee. A scare from a grotesque spider and a couple hours later, I was off to pick up more cash for some tech work I did previously. We shot the chilly breeze briefly as we discussed future work. Meanwhile the clouds were rolling in, turning into ideal slumber conditions. Tonight, I’ll be working at a toy store and also picking up another check, hence my looking forward to a nap. All day I’ve been longing to be reunited with my warm bed. It’s gettin cold out here for a pimp.
November 15, 2012
August 16, 2012
This is for all those people who ask me what I do/what I’ve been up to. However, I feel I still haven’t fully answered this question.
July 20, 2012
Last night I had planned to record a video review for The Dark Knight Rises after attending a midnight premiere. I was too tired to do so, and I figured I could do it some time the next day. I wasn’t expecting to wake up to news of a mass shooting in a Colorado theater.
Besides the act itself, what terrifies me is reading that supposedly the shooter wanted to be addressed as the Joker… or whatever.
There is still a lot of information we don’t know. There is still a lot to process. There is still a lot I’m trying to wrap my head around, so I apologize in advance for any incomplete thoughts. However, saying “my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to those families” is a massive understatement. (more…)
June 23, 2012
I recorded a video on my phone today to post tonight. The video didn’t save like it was supposed to (meaning it didn’t save at all) so now I have nothing to show for it. I’m not too bummed by it, though. It was more of an introduction of a possible new video series (even though I haven’t done any more installments of previous videos).
But I get an A for effort, right? I did try to record something. And I feel (more…)
February 2, 2012
Around New Years I made a pledge of sorts to make more video blogs for the Indoob! I recorded a “Best of 2011″ within the first week, but I forgot to include some things in that video and planned to do another soon after. But before I could do that, I had a bunch of videos that still hadn’t been edited yet from other projects.
Time passed and I had to keep putting off the video blogs to get my other projects done, feeling guilty for each missed opportunity. But it’s about priorities. I love my blog and making the Indoob fun for all, but I’m trying to get some business done, and running this blog is more of a hobby. Plus, it takes a lot less time to write than produce a video, hence the reason you’re reading this vs watching me tell you.
In other words, I can’t go out and play until I finish my homework.
So look for my Best of 2011 sometime in the future, along with other things I have planned. In the meantime, it’s the written word and maybe some photography which may or may not be my own.
What’s the deal with Groundhog’s day? I mean seriously, who came up with this idea that a groundhog emerges from his home (actually he’s evicted like he owes rent) and determines if winter will be longer or shorter this year based on if he sees his shadow or not?
I haven’t done any research on this holiday, so I’m writing my opinions “blind”, if you will. And I hope that you will, and will humor my questioning. I’m wondering if anyone has really stopped to think about why we do this. Must we abuse animals for our weather musings? (more…)
January 25, 2012
Once again, my apologies to my fellow Indoobians who have been waiting for my regular writings. I also promised to make more videos but things haven’t worked out the way I intended every time I get ready to record myself. One day I forget the tripod, the next day I forget the camera, the day after that I can’t control the lighting and then the day after that I’m just no longer in the mood.
As they say, life happens.
So a video will come when it is ready. The videos I had in mind would feature my review of 2011 (the longer I wait, the less relevant it seems to do it), Oscar nominations (which you can hear on The Lost Dial) and various other things like movie and food reviews.
I sometimes feel I’ve gotten too busy for my own good. I look back on the past week and wonder where the time went. I can’t blame it on TV, as much as I love to keep up with some of my favorite shows, I only spend about two hours watching it. Perhaps I’m sleeping too much. As I type that very sentence, I think of coffee and how I haven’t had any yet.
I have lists of lists of things to do. That isn’t a typo, I literally have my lists of to-do lists. Some are church related, some are 3S related. Oh, by the way, from now on, I’m calling 3S:FX Productions, “3S” for short because if you had to say 3S:FX Productions out loud 17 times in a single conversation, your mouth would be very tired and require 2 glasses of water. Anyway, you get the point. I have things to do and I feel like I don’t get them all done in the timely manner that I expect.
I can’t wait for the day when I can hire an assistant. Oh the joys of saying “Dorthy Jane, hold all my calls.” Yes, that’ll be the day, indeed.
But I’ll end on this thought: I am taking full responsibility for not getting my plans completed. I’m blaming my lack of ambition after getting over the mad holiday hustle and bustle. I need to remind myself that people are depending on me to succeed, even if they aren’t I need to believe that they are because that’s what drives me. My fear of failure is one of a million things that keeps me moving forward, even if that translates to sitting in this chair for 10 hours editing a 15 minute video.
At this particular moment on this particular day, I’m struggling to make sense of what exactly is going on. I’ve recently run into a number of setbacks and I feel like I’m at the point of pre-panic.
What is pre-panic?
Picture this: you’re driving along on a road, all is going well, it’s a nice day, music is great, birds are singing, hunky dory, etc. But look, there’s a bridge coming up. No big deal, except unbeknownst to you, the bridge is in bad shape. By the time you notice the bridge will leave you in a bad situation, you slam on the breaks.
But you hit the breaks too late, and you are now in that bad situation.
Pre-panic is that split second moment between realizing the danger and reacting to it. Sure, you can just not panic, but we’re all human… it’s something that just sneaks up on us like a well timed joke. While laughter helps you lose calories, panicking doesn’t do much of anything except maybe freak out or annoy others around you.
In my moment of pre-panic, while I’m driving in my car, I’m remembering that old saying about Jesus being my passenger (or the driver? I can’t remember which) but either way, I look over to realize everything is going to be alright. For all I know, the broken down bridge is probably part of the journey. Perhaps I need to pull over for a little while and wait for the bridge to be repaired. Maybe it’s safer to walk across the bridge. Or just maybe there’s another route around it altogether.
The point of the pre-panic is not to panic at all. Ultimately, when using that moment in time wisely, any “freaking out” will be to a minimum if none at all. Another word for it: rationalizing. But when was the last time you remember rationalizing and panicking at the same time?
While I don’t yet know at this point how I’m going to overcome this adversity, I do know that everything is going to be alright. God has brought me this far, I know he’s not going to leave me stranded for too long.
December 24, 2011
December 14, 2011
These past few weeks have started to become a blur. Not due to the Christmas rush that has everyone looking like smears on a pastel portrait, but just getting “my ducks in a row.” That’s another saying that doesn’t make too much sense to me. Why would you want your ducks in a row? And who has ducks to be placed in a row? Let them do their own thing. (more…)